18/08/09

I am sorry I am not very positive in this video:( Things are hard atm… I have recently got some memories and flashbacks from traumatic events in my childhood which I have tried so hard to block out through 10 years of an eating disorder. I have had them before but this time they felt more real. I am scared. Feel as though I am holding on by a thread. Coping the only way I know how that gives me some relief. I know its not good and I need to find another way. I am in crisis mode. This sux ……